Time goes by, hurried, slow, it moves on noticed or unnoticed.
There have been graduations, first jobs, weddings, births and even deaths
Outwardly life has moved on as it should but on the inside, time stood still cos some things dont change
Like the gaping holes in our hearts which you occupied and how much you are missed each day.
You were missed when D n J walked down the aisle on their weddings days- you would have been so proud.
You were missing on the graduations and your "well done" speech that you always wrote down so you wouldnt forget any detail.
Your strength that we always counted on was missing when we lost Ry
I would give anything to see you with Sandie, she is so adorable and such a joy.
You've been gone a while now and I smile whenever I think of where you are is where you always wanted to be and I bet it feels good to feel the weight of this world off your shoulders now.
But I see you all around me, in the unassuming manner of the boys and some of their mannerisms, in the gentleness of J and the protectiveness of D. Little reminders of who you were.
So dont be mad if I cry but it just hurts so bad sometimes and I am long done in asking the question why cos I guess the answer is for another time.
I pray with every tear and am thankful for the time I held you here
I wanna live my life just like you did
Make most of my time just like you did
I want to make my home up in the skies just like you did
But until I get there, save a place for me cos I will be there someday